Thursday, October 31, 2013
Getting Thru!
Quick post to say that I am happy with myself :) 3 days of not eating the things that cause me pain! Yaaaaa Me! Even with the stress of having my oldest son at the ER yesterday, I resisted the urge to buy crap comfortable food. I can do this!
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Aches & Pains
I have the pleasure of dealing with a few autoimmune diseases. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's, which is an autoimmune disease of the Thyroid, and also with autoimmune liver disease officially in 2010. I was treated back in the early 90's for a thyroid disorder by my Primary Care Dr but wasn't ever really "treated" with it properly. Demanding being referred to a few specialists was the key to finally getting a diagnosis for both diseases. We shouldn't have to push so hard for having more Dr's take Thyroid issues more seriously. It effects so many things in our bodies.
It has been years that I haven't really consumed much for dairy products. I learned myself years ago that a bowl of ice cream wasn't worth the stomach pains and trips to the bathroom that followed after eating one. I have never been a fan of cheese, yogurt, or many other dairy products so this is a much easier food group to eliminate from my food plan. Gluten however is a different story. It seems like EVERYTHING good in the world has gluten in it :( Texas Toast for breakfast, whoopie pies for snack, spaghetti for dinner....and on and on the list goes of all my favorite things that I was told would continue to lower my health if I continued to consume them. I know better. I know I feel miserable after eating gluten. Why then do I continue to put myself thru it? Good question! I have gone weeks and weeks at a time with no gluten only to fall back to my old ways and end up eating it all the time. My body sure does pay the price for my decision. My hip joints ache and hurt when I consume gluten. I am seeing also that my carpal tunnel symptoms increase when I eat items containing gluten. My general being just hurts. I lay in the bed every morning and hurt before my feet even hit the floor.
Today marks Day 3 in a row again with eating clean and healthy like I know I should....sure enough, I woke up this morning with no aches or pains! It is such a huge difference. You would think it would be enough to keep me doing it. Let's hope that is the case this time :)
It has been years that I haven't really consumed much for dairy products. I learned myself years ago that a bowl of ice cream wasn't worth the stomach pains and trips to the bathroom that followed after eating one. I have never been a fan of cheese, yogurt, or many other dairy products so this is a much easier food group to eliminate from my food plan. Gluten however is a different story. It seems like EVERYTHING good in the world has gluten in it :( Texas Toast for breakfast, whoopie pies for snack, spaghetti for dinner....and on and on the list goes of all my favorite things that I was told would continue to lower my health if I continued to consume them. I know better. I know I feel miserable after eating gluten. Why then do I continue to put myself thru it? Good question! I have gone weeks and weeks at a time with no gluten only to fall back to my old ways and end up eating it all the time. My body sure does pay the price for my decision. My hip joints ache and hurt when I consume gluten. I am seeing also that my carpal tunnel symptoms increase when I eat items containing gluten. My general being just hurts. I lay in the bed every morning and hurt before my feet even hit the floor.
Today marks Day 3 in a row again with eating clean and healthy like I know I should....sure enough, I woke up this morning with no aches or pains! It is such a huge difference. You would think it would be enough to keep me doing it. Let's hope that is the case this time :)
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Surving Day 1
I went to bed last night already knowing that I would be waking up today and today would be the day. Today when my feet hit the floor I was already focused and thinking about how I was determined to make a few simple changes today that would get me on the path that I want to take. Today's goal was to eat as healthy as I could all day. No more Diet Pepsi, no chips, no nasty sugary crap, and no over stuffing myself cause it just feels good to keep eating. I achieved the goal today.
My morning started out with a black cup of coffee. That isn't any change from what I do pretty much every day anyway. I used to be one who drank what my husband called "candy coffee" with lots of flavorings and sugar but during one of my last attempts at losing weight and getting healthy I made myself learn that change....and hey, one good thing that stuck!
I tend to do fairly well with doing pretty much low-carb eating. I don't do well with actually counting calories. Measuring portions just isn't my thing either. I will consider changing this some once I get myself more comfortable with the changes in what I actually eat. Can't do all the steps at once. Or at least I can't.
My mid morning breakfast/brunch consisted of 5 sausage links and 2 fried eggs. Good low carb basic stand by's.
I got really hungry in the afternoon but just cause of stupid things around the house I was doing I ignored that. Skipping eating when my body is saying "hey feed me " isn't a smart choice. I did eat a gluten free apple cinnamon rice cake with maybe about a tablespoon of peanut butter on it as I was finishing up our dinner meal. I was too hungry. That was a mistake. The only good thing is that I did pick a healthy choice. I didn't reach for the open bags of chips in the cupboard. So over all, okay, I will learn and not do that again tomorrow.
Dinner tonight was from something that I saw shared yesterday on Facebook by a friend. In my crockpot all day I had 4 chicken breasts cooking in BBQ sauce and Orange Marmalade. Buttercup squash and a pickle slice was served with it. I had one breast of the chicken, 1 pickle slice, and I would say a little over a cup of the squash. Few negatives...certainly there is sugar in the marmalade and the BBQ sauce....BUT if I look at what other choices I could have made, hek if i look at the choices I made just the night before, this was a much better option tonight. I didn't have seconds. I ate slowly. I enjoyed the variety in the flavors. The chicken was really a nice sweet flavor and then send down a bite of pickle...wooohoooo....taste buds were alive! I use "I can't believe it's not butter" so that was on my squash. Not tons, but some.
I have drank only water all day. The cup I am using is a big, maybe 32 oz, plastic covered container. I have infused the water with lemon slices. I believe I am on my 4th fill up :) That makes me very happy! Today has been successful with reaching a few simple goals. I can do this. I can do this one day at a time. Today, day 1 was good.
Faith
My morning started out with a black cup of coffee. That isn't any change from what I do pretty much every day anyway. I used to be one who drank what my husband called "candy coffee" with lots of flavorings and sugar but during one of my last attempts at losing weight and getting healthy I made myself learn that change....and hey, one good thing that stuck!
I tend to do fairly well with doing pretty much low-carb eating. I don't do well with actually counting calories. Measuring portions just isn't my thing either. I will consider changing this some once I get myself more comfortable with the changes in what I actually eat. Can't do all the steps at once. Or at least I can't.
My mid morning breakfast/brunch consisted of 5 sausage links and 2 fried eggs. Good low carb basic stand by's.
I got really hungry in the afternoon but just cause of stupid things around the house I was doing I ignored that. Skipping eating when my body is saying "hey feed me " isn't a smart choice. I did eat a gluten free apple cinnamon rice cake with maybe about a tablespoon of peanut butter on it as I was finishing up our dinner meal. I was too hungry. That was a mistake. The only good thing is that I did pick a healthy choice. I didn't reach for the open bags of chips in the cupboard. So over all, okay, I will learn and not do that again tomorrow.
Dinner tonight was from something that I saw shared yesterday on Facebook by a friend. In my crockpot all day I had 4 chicken breasts cooking in BBQ sauce and Orange Marmalade. Buttercup squash and a pickle slice was served with it. I had one breast of the chicken, 1 pickle slice, and I would say a little over a cup of the squash. Few negatives...certainly there is sugar in the marmalade and the BBQ sauce....BUT if I look at what other choices I could have made, hek if i look at the choices I made just the night before, this was a much better option tonight. I didn't have seconds. I ate slowly. I enjoyed the variety in the flavors. The chicken was really a nice sweet flavor and then send down a bite of pickle...wooohoooo....taste buds were alive! I use "I can't believe it's not butter" so that was on my squash. Not tons, but some.
I have drank only water all day. The cup I am using is a big, maybe 32 oz, plastic covered container. I have infused the water with lemon slices. I believe I am on my 4th fill up :) That makes me very happy! Today has been successful with reaching a few simple goals. I can do this. I can do this one day at a time. Today, day 1 was good.
Faith
Have To Start Somewhere
It seems like such an old over used cliche to say "you have to start somewhere", but it is so true. Today I am starting. Today I am starting again. Today I am starting to work again at getting comfortable in my own shoes. I want to be comfortable in all of my shoes. My flips flops at the beach, my high heels at a dinner party, and my slippers snuggled up on the couch at home.
I invite you along with me as I start again and as I work towards my goal. Here is where I want to share what has got me to this point and share what is getting me beyond it. I don't want to talk about one subject. I don't want to share just about one area of interest. I don't want to limit what can be posted. I want this to be all of me. I want this to cover my journey in getting comfortable with my health, my spiritual beliefs, my past as well as my future, and my relationship with family and friends.
The first thing I need to focus on is my health so that will for sure be at the fore front as I begin this journey. Eating clean compared to eating dirty is something I need to make happen. Food has always been way more than just energy for me. It has been a way out, a level of comfort when times are bad, and even a tool to use when things are good. Never ending cycle of bad choices and then trying again is what I am trying to break. Food is something that I use as a crutch to aid in my self-hatred I have. I need to admit, so here it goes; I know that I dislike myself enough that I use that as why I don't improve myself. In my mind I deserve to be fat, I deserve to be unhealthy, and I damn sure deserve to be unhappy. So this journey comes with more than just waking up and not eating any processed food for a day. This journey needs to come with full disclosure, full forgiveness, and the full ability to let myself be the best that I can be. No more holding back. Follow me, or even better, join me.
I want to be comfortable in my own shoes again.
Faith
I invite you along with me as I start again and as I work towards my goal. Here is where I want to share what has got me to this point and share what is getting me beyond it. I don't want to talk about one subject. I don't want to share just about one area of interest. I don't want to limit what can be posted. I want this to be all of me. I want this to cover my journey in getting comfortable with my health, my spiritual beliefs, my past as well as my future, and my relationship with family and friends.
The first thing I need to focus on is my health so that will for sure be at the fore front as I begin this journey. Eating clean compared to eating dirty is something I need to make happen. Food has always been way more than just energy for me. It has been a way out, a level of comfort when times are bad, and even a tool to use when things are good. Never ending cycle of bad choices and then trying again is what I am trying to break. Food is something that I use as a crutch to aid in my self-hatred I have. I need to admit, so here it goes; I know that I dislike myself enough that I use that as why I don't improve myself. In my mind I deserve to be fat, I deserve to be unhealthy, and I damn sure deserve to be unhappy. So this journey comes with more than just waking up and not eating any processed food for a day. This journey needs to come with full disclosure, full forgiveness, and the full ability to let myself be the best that I can be. No more holding back. Follow me, or even better, join me.
I want to be comfortable in my own shoes again.
Faith
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